Janelle In Real Life

Janelle In Real Life


Real Talk

Can we do some real talk for a minute?
Because this dress is beautiful, the backdrop is beautiful and these photos are BEAUTIFUL. But when I first saw them I did not love the way I looked in them, and that almost prevented me from hitting publish.

dress- clad & cloth (similar) // shoes- steve madden // necklace- elm avenue (similar)

I've struggled a little with my weight most of my life. I've never considered myself "fat" but I've always been a little heavy compared to those around me. I remember in 5th grade for whatever reason my friends were all measuring their waists with a jumprope, "look, I can tie it around my waist 5 times!" they'd say. I could barely get it around 4 times & I was a humiliated little 11 year old girl.

In high school my friends were cheerleaders & athletes and were stick thin. I played sports too, but I was still a little bigger than them. Looking back my 110 lb frame compared to their 100 lb ones... it was not a stark difference! But to me it felt so different. I felt awkward in a swim suit & grew jealous of how perfect my friends' bodies looked in every piece of clothing, while I had to be very strategic about what I wore. I was never made to feel bad about the way I looked by others, it was all a problem I was creating in my own mind.

As an adult, and having had 2 babies, my weight has fluctuated a ton & I've always been keenly aware of the changes. I lost a lot of weight after my oldest was born, I actually dropped 20 lbs extra after losing all of the baby weight. I was confident with my body! It was amazing and lasted about a year before I got pregnant again. And now here we are, 2 years postpartum from my youngest & I'm not where I want to be. I miss the confidence that went along with being thin!

I'm trying something new though. I'm trying to honestly just be happy and not worry about my weight so much. I'm still trying so hard to be healthy... I'm trying to eat better & I'm counting calories. I'm going to the gym 4-5 days a week & participating in fitness challenges! I'm doing my part & I need to let go now & just be happy with what my body decides to do.

I listened to a podcast by The Alison Show the other day where she talked about her journey to losing weight. Her story was beautiful & so relatable! I was expecting to get a list to check off of things she did to shed the weight. Instead she encouraged you to look inward. And what I got from her message was to just busy yourself with being happy & living your life! The pounds will come off.

I guess my point is that there's no good reason to skip publishing a blog post because I wish my gut was sucked in a little more. Here's to being happy with where we're at & always working to be better!


on enjoying life


Do you guys ever feel like sometimes you're just in a rut? This time of year really seems to be rough for everyone, and understandably so. It's freezing cold, the roads are usually icy or covered in snow and it's crazy how much being outside can do for you... and how much you miss it when you can't have it!


My kids are going nuts (and I am too) being cooped up in the house all the time. We try doing little trips to the library or Target, but they definitely need an opportunity to use their "outside voices"... I don't think the library patrons or target customers appreciate the screaming & running as much as my boys do.


Anyway, back to the rut. I just feel exhausted all the time you guys! I've been trying to get to the gym a few times a week & do fun, enjoyable thing here & there to lift my spirits but I am just worn out. Sweet little Carson has been doing so much better lately with his development (you can read about his diagnosis here) but the last few weeks there's been some regression in regards to meltdowns.


If you've ever had a toddler in your house, you know what their tantrums can be like. Now imagine a kid twice as big throwing a 30 minute tantrum because you went upstairs to read a book with them before bedtime, but no, only dad can do that, mom has to stay downstairs until it's time for a prayer. ANY break in the routine is pretty big deal around here and it's hard not knowing what tiny little change you make will spark a meltdown.


The hardest part is that they're not screaming & kicking meltdowns... they're sobbing, emotionally taxing, "how could you do this to me, mom" kind of meltdowns. The kind that break your heart & leave you feeling mentally, emotionally, and sometimes even physically, exhausted.


But bless his little heart, we are working on it!! And one of my outlets is styling/blogging about an outfit so here we are. If you're ever left wondering why I blog about something so seemingly shallow & unimportant, it's because to me it's far from unimportant!


top- soel boutique (similar) // jeans- hudson // booties- matisse // necklace- elm avenue // purse- thrifted (rebecca minkoff)

I love blogging about fashion & my life, and I'll continue doing it as long as it brings me joy. My hope is that this blog can be a joy to others as well! So sometimes things will be serious & heartfelt, and other times it will be casual & lighthearted. My true desire with this blog is to build a community to lift each other up, commiserate about the hardships, and celebrate the victories. I hope you find inspiration when you read here! 


back to basics

Basics you guys. They're basics for a reason! It doesn't get much better to be in my "momiform" of a flowy top, high waisted jeans, & a cardigan. Throw in some cute booties for flare & you've got yourself the perfect look!



top- soel boutique // cardigan- piper & scoot // jeans- hudson // booties- shopbop (free people)
If you follow me on instagram you may have seen my insta-story about these jeans! I've been on the hunt for a while, looking for a good fitting pair of jeans that were high waisted! I hit up soel and tried a few things on & ended up with these babies for 20% off! I'm really learning the value of investing in a couple pairs of high quality jeans & shoes. I tend to not go all out on tops & sweaters though, gotta have a little balance!